[17 Mar 2005|05:08pm] xricax 2 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

[08 Mar 2005|02:04am] [ mood | sad ] [ music | Pink // Family Portrait ] Ahh!! I've officially broken my whole sleeping schedual. lol [look, i cant spell!] Thank you xxginaxx  for helping me put on my header and stuff. <3 Thanks to Mari for my header! She rawks! ;] I can't believe I'm up at 2 am knowing I have testing tomorrow. Annnd, I dont have an alam clock. So i doubt I wake up. Unless someone calls me cell phone at 7 AM to wake me up ;) [813-454-5427] hehe. [squeaks] I talked to Emma [blue] on AIM tonight! I miss talking to her. :( Rica: Hey emma.. Emma: ...? Rica: You live in a trashcan? Emma: Don't be jealouse! lol. We are odd. I need a matching icon for my LJ. o.O [all happyness leaves] Damn. This song just had to come on now, didnt. it..[sigh] ( Stupid song that depresses me. . . ) 6 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

Why do I even bother praying anymore. . . [07 Mar 2005|11:25pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | FRIENDS <3 ] Ok, so I just downloaded Jennifer from Good Morning America, or whatever the hell its called, where she gives the girl her gaurdian angel braclete. I'm so pathetic I cried. lol. The girl didnt even frickin know Jen's name! SHE CALLED HER RACHEL FOR GODS SAKE! I frickin know almost everything about her, and this doorknob gets to meet her AND gets her braclete! WTF?! BULL SHIT! [breathes] Meh, I hate Christina Agularia. Stoopid whore. </random Hmmp, I'm just gunna shut up. PS) I WANT SEASON 9 OF FRIENDS ON DVD! :'( [along with 6, 7, and 8] =| 3 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

[07 Mar 2005|04:15am] [ mood | Haha Gina, I'm horny. rofl. JK ] It's 3 am and my lard ass is still up. Pfft. Compliments to xxginaxx  for my purdy layout. [kiss] I heart you. Yay! Theres no school today! We're off for the strawberry festival. Im going tomorrow with my friends. woot. LOL. I'm watching my FRIENDS party DVD, TOW the soap opera party. I love this ep. But my fav is TOW the routine. "Lookin good Gellars!" "We know!" Haha.     ( Friends ramble.. ) 2 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

[06 Mar 2005|06:17pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Austin Powers Theme ] Ello children. WTF. Don't ask. lol I'm bored. I'm watching Austin Powers. I love Dr. Evil. lol. Hot. ; ] Meh, does anyone have ANY lj layouts they dont want anymore? Along with the overrides. lol. Cuz I'm a lazy bum. [nod] Ok, im going to go watch Austin Powers. lol. Oh and Annie, thanks for hiding me from my stalker. lol <3 .X. Throw me a rose...

[06 Mar 2005|05:32am] [ mood | sad ] [ music | Ozzy Osbourne // Crazy Train ] Compliments on my layout thanks to me. Cuz i kick ass like that. Ok, so i dont kick ass, but i can wish..cant i? O_o Its frickin 5:30 AM. I cant sleep. Maybe because I litterally slept all day. Hmmmp. I want a new layout. lol. I don't like this one that much. Will someone with them graphic skillz, make me one plese? Ill give yo a e-hug if you do. = ] Meh, maybe I should try to sleep..nah. I need a new frickin icon! Mother fruitcaker, I need a new layout AND new frickin icon. What the bloody hell is this world coming to?!? Meh, Kristina signed on MSN today. We barley talked. We never talk. I miss her. [sigh] Damn it, I miss Nitza too. I doubt she misses me. [sigh again] I dont even talk to Emma anymore. Why is everyone leaving me? [cries] Wow, come to think of it, everyone IS leaving me. This is depressing. Am I that bad of a person? Hell, even Miss Owens is slowly leaving. And that will flat out kill me. Maybe I should go to bed, I'm depressing myself. What else is new..pfft. OK, im going to bed. I hope i dont wake up. [cries] 14 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

[05 Mar 2005|10:06pm] Why Suicide is not the answer Ask the 25-year-old who tried to electricute himself. He lived. But both his arms are gone. What about jumping? Ask John. He used to be intelligent, with an engaging sense of humor. That was before he leapt from a building. Now, he's brain-damaged and will always need care. He staggers and has seizures. He lives in a fog. But, worst of all, he KNOWS he used to be normal. What about pills? Ask the 12-year-old with extensive liver damage from an overdose. Have you ever seen anyone die of liver damage? You turn yellow. It's a hard way to go. What about a gun? Ask the 24-year-old who shot himself in the head. Now he drags one leg, has a useless arm and has no vision or hearing on one side. He lived through his "foolproof" suicide. You might too. But... Who will clean your blood off the carpet or scrape your brains from the ceiling? Commercial cleaning companies may refuse that job--but SOMEONE has to do it. Who will have to cut you down from where you hung yourself or identify your bloated body after you've drowned? Your father? Your mother? Your wife? Your son? The carefully worded "loving" suicide note is of no help. Those who loved you will NEVER completely recover. They'll feel regret and an unending pain. Suicide is contagious. Look around your family. Look closely at the 4 year old playing with his cars on the rug. Kill yourself tonight, and he may do it ten years from now. You do have other choices. There are people who can help you through this crisis. Call a hotline. Call a friend. Call your minister or priest. Call a doctor or hospital. Call the police. They will tell you that there's hope. Maybe you'll find it in the mail tomorrow. Or in a phone call this weekend. But what you're seeking could be just a minute, a month, or a day away. You say you don't want to be stopped? Still want to do it? -Well, then, I may see you in the psychiatric ward later. And we'll work with whatever you have left. Remember: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. ***IF YOURE READING THIS, PLEASE STEAL IT AND PUT IT IN YOUR JOURNAL TOO.*** 2 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

[05 Mar 2005|06:33pm] [ mood | gay ] AHHHHHHHHHH! Im the worlds biggest screw up. O_o or something like that.. OK, soo, last night i was supposed to go to the movies with Gina, but, after school, i got talked into going to my friends house and going the the strawberry fest. and i TOTALY forgot about the movies. I hate me. Ok, so we go to the festival at 11 pm and we didnt leave till 4 am. well the plan was to go to kristens house and go to the parade today, but everything changes at last minute, and kristen and robyn wanted to go to zypherhills, which is a long ass way from my house, so i didnt go. i found a way home and went to bed at 5 am. And i didnt wake up untill 6 pm today. And wheni got up, i had 6 new voice mails, half of them were from my friend Jessica's mom, saying jessica wasnt home and she couldnt find her. Great. My friend is missing. Then my mom calls all freaked out becasue i havent called her or anything and she thought i was dead. THEN I get online, and im still checking my messages on my cell, and i get one from Gina. I was supposed to stay the night at her house tonight, which i am. So thats all taken care of. But Jessica is still missing, I'm still tired, and i need to get a shower so I can go to Gina's..[breathes] Ok, im going to get a shower. hope i dont fall asleep in there. lol O_o 4 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

[28 Feb 2005|08:28pm] [ mood | geeky ] [ music | American Idol ] First I'd like to say. I. HAVE. TO. PEE. But, Im a lazy bum and i dont want to get up. ; ] Ok, so turns out Brad and Jen didnt go to the Oscars. They went to the Oscar pre-party with Gweneth Paltrow and Vince Vaughan. How odd. Brad & Jen arrived in diff cars. Oh well. I knew Brad was gay alll alllooong. [nod] Ok, so I watched the Oscars last night with Miss Owens. ROFL. We were dissing everyone. It was great. I  miss her =| WTF, I'm watching American Idol, and these people cant sing. It's sad. AH HOLY SHIZ! This morning on Good Morning America, Jennifer met some chick whose parents died and all this stuff, SO JEN GAVE HER A BRACLET A CLOSE FRIEND GAVE TO HER! wtf kinda shiz is that?! DOES THE WORLD LIKE TO TORTURE ME?! [breathes] Oh, And Phoebe and Annie both said they mailed Oprah for me to be on her show to meet jen. Thanks Guys. Not gunna happen though. =] WHO WANTS TO SEE DISRURBING PICTURES OF RICAS BOOOOOOOBS?!    --- My kick ass red bra ; ] --- My boobs with green paper of them. ROFL. Im aware you can kinda see my niffles. HEHE.   And thats it. lol 4 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

[26 Feb 2005|01:45pm] I've deleted my caleida journal. I'll stick with LJ. ..I'll update later.. 4 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

[21 Feb 2005|07:11pm] www.caleida.com/users/hells_angel/ ..my new journal.. .X. Throw me a rose...

[24 Jan 2005|10:09pm] [ mood | / kinda sick ] IM SO HAPPY TO BE ALIVE RIGHT NOW! I almost died =[ i was almost rushed to the hospital the other night ='[ it was horrible, i was really sick and i kept throwing up, and i was dizzy and couldnt walk or anything. but im fine now, i just have really bad head aches from time to time, doctor says its from being stressed out... Alrighty, i gotta go. ill try to update tomorrow or something, my brothers being a freaking computer hog. ok, ttyl.<3 2 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

[20 Jan 2005|05:36pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | Lacuna Coil // Heavens a lie ] I can only pray that Gods listening to these prays that I scream But he won't answer me He won't even give me a hint that he's real He won't let these interanal wounds heal Every time I pray, I feel like I get turned away I'm only asking for a mircle That my life will be ok But he's not answering, and I've got other things to say Everyone says "Put God in you're life, and you'll be ok" I've lost count of all the times I've done that God isnt real, he's a hoax, a trap, he's nothing to me Never has, never will be If he's real, my family would be together Love would be real, and my wrists wouldnt bleed My scars wouldnt show, they'd magically heal But this is only IF God was real. . . 2 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

[14 Jan 2005|04:51pm] IM SO CLOSE TO LOSING IT! I can NOT take much more. My weekend just went to hell, and i swear to fucking god im going to slit this dogs throat. Jesus christ, im going insane, im so pissed of and depressed at the same time, and its giving me a godamn headache. OMFG - im so sick of my mom and her stupid boyfriend, they are making me want to kill them both. Fuck, im just going to go, i know everyones sick of hearing about my fucked up life.. 2 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

[sigh] [13 Jan 2005|06:57pm] [ mood | depressed ] I'm really starting to think God hates me. If only you guys knew what was going on over here. My life is litterally falling apart..and i cant take much more. no, im not going to kill myself. i just wish everything was back to the way it used to be. when everyone thought i was happy. ive been thinking and before my parents split, i really had nothing to be sad/depressed about, and i really had good enough reasons to cut myself. but now, i have every reason in the world to be sad/depressed, and many reasons to cut. But i wont. I have to be stong for my moms sake. i just hope i can be strong. its hard sitting in class and just wanting to bust out crying. but i cant do that, so for now ill leave on my fake smile...which i hate doing. because i really want something to smile about. i really do. i really wish i could just sit back and think, "my lifes not that bad", but it is. it really truly is. Im surprised i still have tears to cry. ive cried so much this past month. My mom just walked in, and handed me a note, she cant talk because shes crying. My dad and brother are such ass holes they make me sick. my brother IMed me and was talking crap, anyway, this is what my mom wrote: Thanks for letting me read that. Atleast I know where I stand. I swear I never cused out your dad. Do what you think is best for you. [meaning if i want to stay with her or move back with my dad] And Im sorry you have to be put thew all this. I dont know what to do. If i stay here, my dad will continue to hate me, and if i leave my mom, god knows what the hell she will do. i just wish i had a real family. like i used to have. and i just wish everyone would stop hating everyone. i just wish i was happy..wishing isnt working anymore, and god wont give me a miricle... 8 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

Sick of gossip [11 Jan 2005|11:00pm] Well, believe it or not, Im really sick of hearing about Brad and Jen. Its getting out of control, and too many rumors are being started. I just wish the press and everyone would leave them alone. If they get back together, thats great. As long as their happy. Anywho - i have to piss so bad it isnt even funny, but my grandma is in the bathroom. Im almost in tears i have to go so bad! Ok getting my mind of peeing - I talked to Jen and we were talking about having a slmber party! we'd stay up and watch movies. I really want this to happen , and I hope it will. She only lives like two hours away :p Ok that didnt take my mind of peeing, and watching friends is not helping, im laughing too hard. bahaha. OH GOD SHES OUT! LET ME PEE! [hold music plays] Woo - and im back =] Hmmmp - did anyone see the Brad, jen and angelina icon? Its kind of funny, yet disturbing. O_o "I like pink tacos" rofl. Anyway.. Oh shiz - i just remembered i have h/w. damn it. pfft, ill update tomorrow. <3 2 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

quotes. . . [11 Jan 2005|06:08pm] FROM 3000 MILES TO GRACELAND Michael: I've got good news and bad news. Jesse: What's the good news? Michael: Your mom's in the trunk. Jesse: What's the bad news? Michael: She's still alive. Peterson: Are you gonna kill me? Murphy: Not until you get the safe open. [Smiles] Murphy: Now that was a joke. Open the safe. Gus: What's great about dating homeless girls? Murphy: What? Gus: You can drop them off anywhere. Michael: Finish your fries. Jesse: You can't tell me what to do. You're not my dad. Michael: Didn't anybody ever tell you about starving kids in Africa? Jesse: Why? Are you gonna send them my fries? Cybil: This looks Beautiful. Murphy: It's one of my favorite pieces. Cybil: Yeah. Where's it from? Murphy: [whispers] Out my ass. Cybil: Excuse me? Murphy: It's an African piece. Cybil: Looks Egyptian to me ^ROFL I LOVE THAT ONE ^ THE GOOD GIRL Bubba: If I were a woman, I'd be a slut. A lesbian slut. Holden: You're a hooker, you hooker. Justine: After living in the dark for so long a glimpse of light can make you giddy. Strange thoughts come into your head and you bettel think them. Has a special fate been calling you and you're not listening? Is there a secret message right in front of you and you're not reading it? Is this your last chance? Are you gonna take it? Or are you going to the grave with unlived lives in your veins? Justine: As a girl you see the world as a giant candy store filled with sweet candy and such. But one day you look around and you see a prison and you're on death row. You wanna run or scream or cry but something's locking you up. Are the other folks cows chewing cud until the hour comes when their heads roll? Or are they just keeping quiet like you, planning their escape. Holden: I'm staring to think... That you don't get me. Justine: MAYBE I *don't* get you. Holden: YOU DO. YOU DO GET ME, YOU JUST DON'T WANNA GET ME BECAUSE I AM TOO INTENSIFIED FOR YOU. Cheryl: Attention, shoppers. There's a Retail Rodeo special on aisle 3. Liquid Drain Cleaner, 2 12-ounce cans for $5.00. Liquid Drain Cleaner has churning power and it will churn right through your pipes. Ladies, you need female plumbing. Shove something clean and new up your filthy pipes. That's Liquid Drain Cleaner on aisle 3. Have a good day and thank you for shopping at Retail Rodeo. [sadly thats all i can think of for that movie] FINDING NEMO Sharks: [reciting] I am a nice shark, not a mindless eating machine. If I am to change this image, I must first change myself. Fish are friends, not food. [the Tank Gang is watching the dentist] Deb: What have we got? Peach: Root canal, and by the looks of those X-rays, it's not going to be pretty. Bloat: Dam and clamper installed? Peach: Yep. [Dentist drills and patient screams] Peach: Now he's using the Schilder technique. Bloat: He's been favoring that one lately. He's using a Hedstrom file. Gurgle: That's not a Hedstrom file, that's a K-flex. Bloat: It has a teardrop cross section, clearly it's a HEDSTROM. Gurgle: No, it's a K-FLEX. Bloat: HEDSTROM. Gurgle: K-FLEX. Bloat: HEDSTROM. [inflates] Bloat: Oomp. There I go. I'll be over here. Deb: [sighs] I'll go deflate him. Dory: Hey there, Mr. Grumpy Gills. When life gets you down do you wanna know what you've gotta do? Marlin: No I don't wanna know. Dory: [singing] Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. What do we do? We swim, swim. Marlin: Dory, no singing. Dory: [continuing] Ha, ha, ha, ha, ho. I love to swim. When you want to swim you want to swim. Marlin: Now I'm stuck with that song... Now it's in my head. Dory: Sorry. Dory: How about we play a game? Marlin: Alright. Dory: Okay, I'm thinking of something orange, and it's small... Marlin: It's me. Dory: Right! [Later] Dory: I'm thinking of something orange and small... Marlin: Me again. Dory: Alright, Mr. Smartypants... [Later] Dory: ... It's orange and small, and has stripes... Marlin: Me, and the next one - just a guess - me. Dory: Okay, that's just scary. ^ROFL^ Marlin: Tell me, Dory, do you see anything? Dory: Yeah, I see a light. Marlin: A light? Dory: Yeah. I see a light. Marlin: Yeah, I see it too. Dory: Hey conscience, am I dead? Marlin: It makes me feel happy, which is a big deal for me. Dory: It's so *pretty*. I want to touch it... [she does; the light bobs quickly away] both: Ooh. Marlin: Hey, come back. Come on back here. I'm gonna get you. Dory: Come here. Marlin: [singing] I'm gonna swim with you... Dory: I'm gonna get you. I'm gonna get you. Marlin: [singing] I'm gonna be your best friend... [a big scary fish looms into view] Marlin: Good feelings gone, both: AHH. [about the humpback whale] Dory: Maybe he only speaks "whale". [slowly and deeply, imitating the whale] Dory: Mmmmoooooowaaaaah... Marlin: Dory. Dory, this is not "whale". You're speaking like "upset stomach". Dory: Have you seen a clown fish swim by? Crab: Yeah, but I'm not telling you Bluey, and there's nothing you can do about it. [Dory holds Crab out of water for the seagulls to see] Seagulls: Mine. Mine. Mine. Crab: Okay. Okay. I'll talk. I'll talk. Bah ok im done. lol. I was bored. O_o 5 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

Brad Pitt the TRASH man is gay.. [10 Jan 2005|10:00pm] Its true. Brad Pitt is gay. He has to be. Why would he leave one of the most beautifulest people in hollywood? Because hes GAAAY. Annd, he was naked the whole time in 'Troy', WITH OTHER MEN! he HAS to be gay, right? baha. Oh im so weird. I bet he left Jen for Micheal Moore. ROFL. Whoa, really im normal. Wee - today was great. Miss owens talked to me, and all my friends, and myself, were all in a good mood. Bah - so happy. Tara - sorry about your dog. :( Glad you liked my present though :) Ok well im going to go...i have angry people after me. lol...read my previous post..haha KRISTINA I LOVE YOU! </3 4 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

Along with Kristina, this deserves a post [09 Jan 2005|12:24pm] [ mood | pissed off ] POSTED BY MONNIE: So, Brad and Jen split up. I'm feeling I think more sorry for the fans than for the couple, because they seemed to take it perfectly fine. I'm just a little bit proud, though, because Courvid won, baby. :p ---- She puts up this act to where everyone thinks shes so mature and "nice" when really, all she is is unmature and a bitch. That was totally uncalled for. And as for the "winning" part - how did they win? How is a relationship competitive? I love Courvid just as much as I do Brad & Jen, But damnit people, have respect. Ok thats all im saying before i get really pissed off and hunt people down :) 13 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

O_o [08 Jan 2005|11:10pm] [ mood | sad ] I. Hate. Psychics. I cant belive the psychic on Maury was right. Brad and Jen split. This is so shoking. I heard it at exactly at 1:44 AM on the news, i freaked because they were like "Brad and Jen shocked hollywood today.." and at first i was thinking, maybe jen finally got pregnant or something,then i got my "bad feeling" and thought what if they split. So i started watching and sure enough, they split. I cried for god knows how long. It hurts to even talk about it. But i support them in anything that they do. And i wish them both the best of luck. Ok - news about me. I now live with my mom. O_o Wow, a lot of news about me, eh? Ok - well, i wont be online everyday like i usally am. [sigh] But i love you all. <3 Gotta scadaddle now. [waves] 2 Roses .X. Throw me a rose...

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